Unruly Neurons
  • Home
  • Contact Heather
  • How to Help
  • Mental Illness
  • About Heather
  • Speaking Engagements
Unruly Neurons
  • Home
  • Contact Heather
  • How to Help
  • Mental Illness
  • About Heather
  • Speaking Engagements
Binge Eating Disorder

Redemption in (BED) Recovery

by Heather Loeb September 21, 2021
by Heather Loeb September 21, 2021 0 comment

Recently I talked about entering into recovery for my binge eating disorder. I knew there would be bumps in the road, but I was doing well. Until last night.

istock-1281787794-1024x788-9187641

Yesterday I had a bad day. Nothing really happened, I was just short-fused and irritable. I snapped at the kids and my husband. I didn’t like the way I felt so I took the maximum (prescribed) dose of my anxiety meds. It turned out to be a mistake, I think. While it did take the edge off, it also numbed me a bit. I started eating snacks around 4 p.m. and was still eating at 9 p.m. One snack after another. I was uncomfortably full, but I kept going.

I binged. Big time. I ate candy, cookies, popcorn, Chinese food for dinner, more cookies and more popcorn. I usually don’t keep that in the house, but I indulged. I don’t like to restrict myself from foods (because I’ll rebel) but I don’t like to set myself up for a binge either. I have to find that fine balance.

This morning when I woke up I didn’t feel so angry and blue. I remembered that today is a new day, and I can do better. I’m grateful for that because that’s what recovery is about — you can keep starting over as many times as it takes to reduce the problem. I’m still reading a book on BED recovery, and that has helped. I just need to apply what I learn to my daily life.

I also asked my friends and family what they do to cheer themselves up after a bad day, and I got a lot of good ideas for the next time I’m not feeling up to par. My favorites were pray, sew, walk, go outside, eat chocolate, take a hot bath, meditate, count blessings and journal. I think those are really good ideas, and I sometimes employ similar coping methods when I’m depressed, but yesterday was just so hard. It was hard to get to the point where I wanted to take care of myself instead of just numbing myself where I didn’t feel anything at all.

Today is different. I’m grateful for my friends and family and everything I have. I will take care of myself, and I will listen to my body and mind.

I will show up for myself, and I will tell myself I’m enough. Because I am.

Today I pray for an attitude adjustment and patience. I am grateful for a new day, and there’s no need for me to look back.

I’m more than my mistakes. So much more.

anxietyanxiety disorderBED recoverybinge eatingDepressiondepression blogeating disordereating disorder recoverymajor depressive disorderMental Healthmental health blogmental illness
0 comment
0
FacebookTwitterPinterestEmail
Heather Loeb

For decades I've struggled with major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, avoidant personality disorder, dysthymia and an eating disorder. I pen my misadventures here, but you can also find my column in the Corpus Christi Caller-Times (caller.com). Thanks for reading and for your support.

previous post
We Must Do Better When it Comes to Postpartum Care
next post
When You Accept Yourself Everything Changes (I Think)

Related Posts

I May Joke and Laugh, but My Eating...

June 20, 2022

I Left the Psychiatric Hospital with a Smile...

April 25, 2022

Patching Big, Round Holes in My Ship

April 9, 2022

What’s in a Binge?

February 27, 2022

Dear Eating Disorder

November 21, 2021

When My Daughter Said the F-Word

October 7, 2021

I Bid You Farewell, Eating Disorder

September 1, 2021

Survival of the unFittest

July 13, 2021

Choke.

May 4, 2021

I Hate My Brain

April 6, 2021

Leave a Comment Cancel Reply

Save my name, email, and website in this browser for the next time I comment.

Tags

anxiety anxiety disorder avoidant personality disorder BED binge eating Binge Eating Disorder body positivity Chronic Pain compulsive eating coronavirus Depression depression blog diet coke eating disorder ECT ECT treatment electroconvulsive therapy family generalized anxiety disorder getting healthy healthy living ketamine major depression major depressive disorder mdd menninger clinic Mental Health mental health blog mental illness mental illness blog mental wellness migraines overeating parenting parenting blog parenting with depression self care stigma of depression suicidal ideation suicide suicide prevention TMS transcranial magnetic stimulation treatment resistant depression Weight Loss

Tags

anxiety anxiety disorder avoidant personality disorder BED binge eating Binge Eating Disorder body positivity Chronic Pain compulsive eating coronavirus Depression depression blog diet coke eating disorder ECT ECT treatment electroconvulsive therapy family generalized anxiety disorder getting healthy healthy living ketamine major depression major depressive disorder mdd menninger clinic Mental Health mental health blog mental illness mental illness blog mental wellness migraines overeating parenting parenting blog parenting with depression self care stigma of depression suicidal ideation suicide suicide prevention TMS transcranial magnetic stimulation treatment resistant depression Weight Loss

Categories

  • anxiety
  • Beauty
  • Binge Eating Disorder
  • Chronic Pain
  • coronavirus
  • Depression
  • family
  • getting healthy
  • Health
  • Ketamine/Spravato
  • Kids
  • Mental Health
  • migraines
  • Parenting
  • Postpartum Depression
  • Self-care
  • Suicide
  • TMS
  • treatment resistant depression
  • Uncategorized
  • Weight Loss
  • Facebook
  • Twitter
  • Instagram
  • Linkedin
  • Email

@2019 - All Right Reserved. Designed and Developed by PenciDesign