I owe y’all an apology; it has been way too long since I’ve blogged, but to be fair, I have been so busy. For the past few months, I’ve been laser focused on NAMI GCC’s Celebrity Jeopardy, which went off without a hitch and was such a success! I’m already thinking about the next one!
But, like always, I get a little blue after Jeopardy is over. I get so busy and hyper-focused on Jeopardy each year that when it’s finished, I feel like I don’t have any work to be done — believe me, I do. I actually have a big project to work on, but I guess it’s not as exciting as Jeopardy. I don’t know, I just feel blue.
Maybe it’s the kids being out of school, too. We’re onto their camp routine, so everyone sleeps later, and I do not like that one bit, but it’s hard for me to wake up early because I’m a bit depressed. And they don’t get to camp until 9 am, so I don’t get to start my work until then, so I skip lunch so I can still be finished by 5 pm. I just hate being out of routine. Big time.
And it’s hard to stay motivated. Although the project I’m working on is a big deal — NAMI GCC is transitioning into a Model A Affiliate, meaning we are going to be independent of NAMI Texas and be our own 501c3. There’s a lot of work and a lot of paperwork, but I’ve done a lot so far, and that is exciting, right? Right? It means big things for us. It’s a huge deal.
I’m ready for it!
I just wish depression weren’t nipping at my heels.
I’m sleeping more, not washing my hair, taking fewer showers, not eating right, isolating – although sometimes the isolation is restorative and my therapist said that it’s ok to do as long as that’s the case.
You know what I really need to do? Exercise. It’s been years. There’s nothing stopping me, and I know it would be so beneficial. That would definitely make me shower and wash my hair more. Two birds with one stone. I hate that phrase.
Things that have been helpful: Writing in my One Line A Day notebook, doing self-care at night, lighting candles before bed, taking small breaks during the day, dry shampoo, wearing comfy clothes when I’m at home, watching my favorite shows and letting everyone know I’m struggling so I can get some support.
I need to sit down and put together a routine that works for me – not just the kids. That would help immensely. I need to do more self-care. I need to give myself grace.
I know this is temporary, and it’s really not bad right now. This is just a blip, but it’s good to be prepared and wipe it out before it gets bigger.
Thank you to those on Facebook who took time to send me support, hugs, well wishes, etc. the other day when I posted about having a depressed, bad day. Your support was overwhelming and meant so much. I actually wrote a column about that so look for that in July at Caller.com.
I am so grateful for my support system.
I am so grateful.
